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merr1nelly113 · 2 months ago

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CW: sh1rtless sorry um im sorry

Im so sorry guys, im so freaky :') i just learned anatomy and turned out like this...

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I hate myself please dont attack me and at least i already did put the content warning and don't want you to be uncomfortable, sorry.

#hellsing #hellsing ultimate #avondale napyeer #hellsing doctor #sorry im so freaky #i feel ashamed lol

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bookalicent · 4 months ago

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yeah so this was insane

#i feel like too many people reduce this interaction to jason being like ‘lol same’#but idk :/#this chapter is from jason’s pov #and leading up to it he’s like ‘people keep walking on eggshells around me bc of the the michael varus stab wound’#and he hates it so when he goes on deck to help out with the storm #everyone’s like wtf except for percy #and jason states how much he appreciated percy not treating him like a sick kid #and i feel like it’s echoed in this sentiment where jason could say so many things like #‘you should never feel that way’ ‘im here if you need anything’#but he doesn’t make percy feel alone in his desire to just…. end it all #which ik for some people that doesn’t work but you’re not a character in hoo and percy is dealing with so much guilt #and he can’t tell annabeth bc she’s a main aspect of that guilt #and he doesn’t wanna guilt her more and he feels ashamed and when he describes this he feels weird for feeling it #so having jason this tough guy be like ‘yo i understand it bc i felt the same way #that’s gotta mean a lot to percy #also insane how jason who also struggles to display vulnerability #allows it in one of few times in this moment just so percy this guy he’s supposed to be jealous about #feels comforted and not alone in his guilt and shame #and also it’s just insane how jason’s wanting to kay em ess does not get talked about AT ALL #and just seeing his mom and the pressure of new rome getting to him #like this scene is insane and i’ll never shut up about it #also ignore me i’m just finishing my reread of hoo that took all summer #jason grace #percy jackson #pjo #ashla.txt

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raiiny-bay · 5 months ago

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Love, Dhes

Parker,

It's unfair how time with you feels so short. How the last 10 years have felt like no time at all. I like to think there are other versions of us out there, somewhere. Maybe in another timeline, another universe. I like to think we find each other no matter where we are or what we're doing. That we're together and happy and I get to love you in a dozen different lifetimes. That's what I hope, anyway. And I hope when this lifetime ends, we get to start over and do it all again. Because once just isn't enough. Not for me. Not with you.

I hope the next 10 years pass slower.

Love, Dhes

#ts4 #simblr #ts4 edit #ts4 render #sims 4 #myedits #sue #dhestyn #kelly #bow #stella #duder the cat #marky #jax #i'm not fucking recovering from this #critical damage has been dealt to me #GODDDDDD this edit took me so LONG.#the GOOD news is there ARE other versions of them & they DO in fact find each other in every universe !!#whether or not they are happy though. well. that's a different story #cough monster boyz. cough slaughter house.#:-)#ngl a lot of the time i was working on this edit all i could think about was how much dhes has grown as a character #like baby dhes genuinely was such a punk. wouldn't be caught DEAD writing a love letter #let alone to kelly of all people #idk i'm just proud of him. seeing him so comfortable with himself... how he's able to show that to others & not feel afraid or ashamed...#it's really sweet!!!#like ik y'all don't know a whole lot about the boys as kids (bc i'm v protective of them so i don't share a lot lol) but trust me.#dhes has come a long way.#genuinely feel like i have watched him grow & learn & change & it does. give me feelings.#n e way. that's it.

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deoidesign · 5 months ago

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For my birthday... read my webcomic! It's literally free! (Unless you want books. Those are not free)

It's beautiful, it's gentle, it's funny, they're canonically t4t and gay... And it's about time traveling vampires solving supernatural mysteries!

I've spent thousands of hours writing and drawing it, and it's really good! I'm not biased!

It's on hiatus right now and coming back in 2 months, so it's the perfect time to get caught up

#i felt weird putting this in there so I didnt but I've also received recognition for excellence in writing #and was nominated as a fan favorite on webtoon canvas...#so like not only do i work super hard but its just really good!#im not ashamed of claiming that i think my work is well done. if i didn't think i was doing a good job why would i do it #buuuut. something about being like please read my comic im literally so good at comics feels weird to me #even though i think that. in my brain #i dont want to imply that there is some objective or tangible goodness to my work simply for receiving some accolades #its nothing other than some accolades. whether or not someone likes it is up to them #so i guess to me it just feels superfluous #but genuinely I love my comics...#i re read them all the time. and i enjoy them!#theres things i would change and probably will change when i go to print #but i did what I could with the time and energy I had #and when it comes back... oh boy.#my friends have agreed its the best stuff ive ever written. it's literally so good...#im so excited to share.#still not fully ready to officially commit to the return date #but i am gunning for it!#webcomics #webtoon #time and time again #its my birthday!#idk wtf to tag this as. im 27 now...#read my comic #LOL

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sysig · 1 year ago

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“It could be that the loss of her children drove the Queen deeper into her darker desires...but, I don’t believe she was fighting against them that hard before that particular tragedy. No monster does.” (Patreon)

Bonus:

Hmm, wonder what he could cover those holes with :3c

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Fellplates #UkaGaster's answers about Toriel really interest me :3c #As evidenced by the quote caption lol - but his other ones are very interesting too! Since it sounds like she's still around!#Poor classic Handplates!Gaster believed Tori dead for such a long time while she was at the Ruins #Meanwhile Fellplates!Gaster is just like ''? I saw the Queen last week she threw me into the pricker bushes? -.ò'' lol #But anyhow lol ♪ The implications that they're still in each other's vicinity really makes me curious about their relationship!#And how Toriel might react to knowing that someone - someone other than her - is having So Much Success on one of her sore spots #Not just of having children but of the constant reminders of Gaster's success where she has to live every day with a heavy heart for her own #Being cruel to him over it - well that's just par for the course isn't it ♪#He mentions that she's much more of an emotional sadist - insulting him and then making it Very clear that she does Not approve of the holes #''They're ugly and you should feel ashamed for drawing so much attention to something so unsightly''#I do think that her knowing that he's so intent on being kind and merciful and then twisting the knife on how much he's hurting her-#Making him feel guilty for daring to even attempt the betterment of all - for giving pieces of himself away and try to be a good person #''If anyone will break my spirit it will be her'' :)#Although that's all assuming that Toriel even knows about the brothers! :0 When I thought about it later it'd make more sense if she doesn't #It was still too good to not do something with the idea hehe - but imagine her betrayal if/when she found out tho she'd kill him on the spot #Gosh I haven't drawn Tori in foreeeeever I can't even remember the last time #Doing a/nother study on her would probably be fun haha she's rather plain how I draw her currently #I wonder if her Fellplates version would also wear reading glasses hehe #And the bonus :3c Where are the plates featured in Fellplates? Surely it's not just called that as a reference right ♪ Hehehe

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luna-loveboop · 3 months ago

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Maybe I should do. Linktober? A bit? I would post egg carvings on some days

Egg carvings! :D it's an area of art I do a lot and would want to grow in... it's wierd tho ':D I hollow eggshells and engrave on them or carve them into shapes... I did this one quick today for examples

If yall want me to do it a bit I will... and that top photo would count for day one- mirror. The reflection setting in the sksw final boss is so cool to me and also I love drawing lightning, tho this isn't my favourite egg I've ever done. Anyways. I could do some days? What do y'all think?

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Edit: well I guess I'm doing it then! Happy October yall, this should be fun :D

#loz #zelda #smoll art #skyward sword #sksw #linktober #<even using that tag feels wierd #but I'm trying to post art and stuff on here #even if my art is odd hehe #this egg cracked and broke right after I finished photos. I dropped it I felt so ashamed.#perils of the craft lol #but it’s really fun! it’s delicate work. and it’s an area of craft I can safely say I’m good at. I’m an egg artist lol #egg carving is actually a super old art that I’m very passionate about and have worked on for years #haven’t shown y’all that before tho *nervous*#this egg didn’t take long. just triforce and silent princess flower and mirror boss battle thingy #I wanted to show yall some example sketches #I also would maybe engrave on glass a bit some days #I count the third poll option as a positive maybe #let me know what you think because I can’t do decisions

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lazykurocat · 8 months ago

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it honestly baffles me that Transphobes or general anti-LGBT will be pro Israel anti-hamas... it makes no sense, and as glad as I am people support Israel it confuses me... all the people who hate me stand for a place I could be safe. yet all the people who should love me stand for a place we would be killed... we live in a mad world... it makes me feel so lost... I don't want transphobes to have my back in one way and then not in another... because I'm scared of transphobes for how they see me and treat me and how much trauma they've caused... but I'm also scared of my own community for playing into their hands and giving them a valid reason to think we're insane when before they had none... I don't know what to do... I feel like as soon as the world moves on from the war the transphobes will just turn on me as they always have... so I find it hard to accept they support Israel and hate Hamas...

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lameow-l · 1 year ago

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GAMING IS MY SON AND IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO HIM IM GONNA KILL EVERYONE IN THIS ROOM AND THEN MYSELF!!

LOOK AT HIM HES SO CUTE

i still have hope in getting the other boys too

its ok they can be a band or smth.. at least then gaming wouldn’t have to be so disappointed in people not hiring him bc he’s just having fun with his boys…

#it took me soooo long to realize his name can also be 'gaming' and idk if i should be ashamed or proud lol #his hashtag is gonna get real funny real quick #is it actually an intentional business decision made by hyv #no way this was accidental #anyway im disappointed in his hair design but i stopped feeling much since all genshin charas always have the ugliest hairstyles #also him being another bennett just not as unlucky #he works so hard and still tries to achieve his artistic dream at the same time #but people just smile and ignore him…PAY THE DUDE!!!#ALSO ALSO.. chiaki 2.0 and they better add all other ryuseitai next #i just can get over how energetic and cool genshin concept designs are when the game keeps slapping us with a downgraded version every time #not to say current designs aren’t energetic or cool.. just not as much lol (still salty about red xiao and those flying nahidas)#now i know why they still not doing an art book yet.. they’re ashamed to admit of the amounts of good designs they never use #AND I LOVE GENSHIN DESIGNS honest (otherwise why would i keep doing fanart of this game and this game only for 3 years)#sorry i dont post all of them.... i have issues #but i cant help but feel robbed when i see these designs knowing what they could’ve been #and it’s in no way hyv’s fault *glance at leakers* and the new designs are getting crazier and cooler but #please for the love of god hyv stop with the mullets PLEASE!!!#gaming #ga-ming #gaming genshin #genshin impact

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duckydrawsart · 8 months ago

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people who act like messy, sketch and doodle are negative descriptors for art shuuush they are my most beloved and beautiful friends

#the very backbone of my art style tbh #also if someone IS using these words to diminish their work #then please don't scold them about it!!! just say the art is nice. that simple #i remember in my early years feeling ashamed/really stupid because calling my work 'a doodle' would get more attention than the art itself #and while people meant well it never encouraged me to be told 'shut up this isnt a doodle' by several people at once phhss #anyways sorry everytime i see popular qrts on twitter like 'YOU CALL THIS A SKETCH!??' i get flashbacks lol #also these are just beautiful words to describe art!! hearts over my head at the very sound

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wifegideonnav · 2 years ago

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yeah you say “cringe is dead” but do you still apologize about reblogging stuff related to your “cringy” interests? kill the mindset that you are somehow not included in that statement or we’re never actually going to change anything

#i have never been in a fandom that apologizes for liking the source media as much as the homestuck fandom does #like jesus christ STOP it’s not cute actually #we’re on tumblr. we’re literally on tumblr and you still feel the need to be like ‘omg so so sorry for reblogging this hs post teehee’#if people unfollow you for it who cares. who. cares.#also not only is it 1) perpetuating a toxic culture of shame and 2) annoying #it’s highly disrespectful to the creator of the media #someone poured their heart and soul into the anime or book or album that you’re so ashamed of liking #by APOLOGIZING for liking something just because other people like to mock it you’re agreeing that this thing that you supposedly love #is defective. less than. worthy of mockery #i mean not only is that spineless as hell it’s like. imagine being a creator and knowing that not even your fans respect your work #so yeah. stop apologizing for liking the things you like. either express that affinity freely or shut the fuck up entirely #hm. im madder about this than i thought i was. lol.#op

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ohoshi · 1 year ago

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buy me coffee 👉👈

i absolutely hate doing this........ but i've stumbled upon a financial crisis recently because our dad has left us (me and my family) for another woman and he was the only source of income to the family lol i am in law school and my sister is in highschool and well i am struggling to find a job until i graduate (bc rn no local cafe or shop wants an employee) and my mother makes $300 a month (of which we pay $180 for the monthly bills) so we are rn barely surviving!!!! it will be all good !!! staying positive and all!!! but um i could really use a liittle teeeny tiny bit of help until i find a paying job to support my family 😭

#i feel ashamed to admit that we have quite literally been eating trash like whatever leftover food people throw away #and it's been on for 2 months now #my dad is an ass it's iNSANE #i am trying to idk do something so i don't have to sell my stuff like my phone or my laptop esp bc i need those for school lol #hence why im selling kpop albums #but yeah....#i feel SO STUPID AND SO ASHAMED DOING THIS #but i am shooting my shot #trying out anything ... at this point #even just boosting this post means AND HELPS! a lot 💖#thank you! 💖🩵#cora.txt

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thebirdandhersong · 3 months ago

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Lol

#theres nothing quite like your mother saying Well maybe you shouldve been more careful because now your boss might think youve been flirting #with this male coworker (whom i like splendidly as a friend) and now maybe she thinks youre not trustworthy #and maybe she regrets hiring you because you said you feel like youre making a lot of mistakes this week and she might assume thats because #your head is filled with this boy.#so dont make her regret hiring you.#MA'AM I TOLD YOU I WAS ALREADY ANXIOUS BECAUSE I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES TODAY WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME ASHAMED #OF SOMETHING THAT I HONESTLY HAD NO CLUE I OUGHT TO BE ANXIOUS ABOUT AT MY FIRST NEW JOB AFTER IVE GRADUATED????#anyway going to bed i cant take this anymore LOL she said it so lightly and im like. well i never even considered #being afraid of making my boss regret hiring me somehow because of some kind of behaviour that i had no idea was sending some kind of signal #anywaysssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#and then she was like why are you crying?? 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#not to be like this is partly why i didnt want to move home but confound it all why are things like this #can i not simply confide in my mother my anxieties and worriws #worries #and not also have to worry about her potentially being like Well have you considered you ARE right and it IS your fault?#idk man something something firstborn child eldest daughter can i have some room to breathe. please #also not to whine but Not my father walking in on me eating dinner at 10pm because i was holed up #in my room in a semi depressive state after so many gong shows in a work day and straight up having no appetite #but deciding my body needs the food anyway its better late than never.....walking in and then saying #you know if you eat this late you'll gain weight. SIR??????????????????#sorry to complain and rant again i simply cannot in this house and whats more am doing my best to honour my parents #but why is it so hard out here and how can they say stuff like that with a smile!!!!!!!#also i DO have an inner critic who is always like Its your fault you are the worst you should be ashamed always........why do my parents #not understand after knowing me for so long and watching me grow up #that i can make myself so ashamed of the smallest thing so easily and that what they say drives me to shame almost as easily?#ANYWAY LOL WHAT A DAY #you guys!!! i am working so hard i promise i PROMISE I am!!! it is my first full time job ever and i am working so so hard #i am doing my absolute best and no one sees it and that is FINE i just wish my parents would see that i AM trying!!#i come back home so dead every single day because i put in 120%! this is literally my first job after graduation #and my parents KNOW this has been the most exhausting taxing and soul crushing year ive had in my very short life so far

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devilsskettle · 4 months ago

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i’ve seen + heard people say that they thought norman bates was creepy from the beginning of the movie but that’s not my interpretation at all, i think now that that everyone knows the plot of psycho as pop culture trivia, it’s impossible to watch psycho the way it was meant to be seen (hitchcock basically changed how movies were shown in theaters so that audiences would see the whole movie from beginning to end and wouldn’t see the plot twist first, for the sake of suspense! now there’s not the same kind of suspense because every single person in the audience knows who the killer is). i think there’s clear foreshadowing and the whole vibe of the motel is creepy, but norman himself, while a bit awkward, i think comes across as endearing and kind but extremely lonely. obviously as certain things are revealed, he gets creepier, but imo the truly bad thing that he does consciously is cover up his “mother’s” crimes but ofc he has to try to protect her. none of what happens in the movie is premeditated or malicious or even intentional on his part. he’s not even a good liar. idk i really think you’re supposed to see his narrative alignment with marion and feel sympathy for how completely trapped he is in his life, while also being scared of him, at first as someone potentially predatory, then as an accomplice to murder, then as a murderer himself. but not until AFTER his conversation with marion!!

#i think this is also why i have trouble with the bates motel version of his character #i think he’s written to be a little bit too weird and rigid #like he hardly has any personality unless he’s feeling an extreme emotion #i think it’s getting better as the show progresses to be fair #but there’s a lot in this show that i’m like. how does this connect to psycho lmao #but what i do really appreciate in the tv series is how strong his white knight complex is #and how totally misguided it is lol #and i think they do a great job of writing a version of norma bates who norman wouldn’t be able to lose #and show what made her so wonderful and why their relationship was so close #while also highlighting the flaws and tensions in that relationship #and why she would become so erratic and domineering and violent in norman’s mind when he dissociates #because it’s hard to reconcile the version of her that he thinks of as crazy and unstable with the version that is his favorite person #they’re just constantly accusing each other of being crazy and then being ashamed of themselves for saying that and taking it back #anyway uhhh. i love my boy. i love MY interpretation of my boy #i think there’s so much going on beyond ‘he dresses like his dead mom and kills people’#and i think people make it hard to talk about the main themes of the movie because they have a preconceived notion of what the movie is #not that that’s not a big part of the movie but like. it colors people’s interpretation of the character before they even watch the movie #psycho

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sidetongue · 1 year ago

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look at hims dancy legs

#there was a very friendly border collie that he was feeling a bit worried about #a few weeks ago he turned a blind corner and rushed up to say hi to two cattle dogs #on leash #and they were not appreciative #one snapped at him and he screamed and ran back #and then was very weary and sad for the rest of the walk #the owners were very very sweet and also a little unaware that their dogs were being spicy lol #but they had every right to be angry that a giant red idiot sped round a corner and crashed into them #luckily they laughed it off #whereas i was a shaking mess and very ashamed of my child's behaviour #anyway i was like great here comes the fear reactivity towards other dogs #but thankfully it has dulled his enthusiasm without creating reactivity #he now cautiously assesses other dogs before greeting and honestly its much more pleasant #thank you scary cattle dog #it was miller checking in to make sure the red dog isn't a total flunk #sprig #dogs

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majormeilani · 5 months ago

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whenever people say "sorry for my new hyperfixation:(( i'm making a new sideblog for it now sorry guys!!!" i'm like BE ANNOYING ON MAIN!!!! DO IT!!!!!! BE FREE!!!! IF PEOPLE DON'T ACCEPT YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE AND YOUR INTERESTS FUCK EM!!!!!!!"

#obviously do what you want tho if you WANT to make a sideblog then RESPECT!!!!#but i don't think you should feel ashamed for having a shift in interests lol #it's part of being human and growing up and ect

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iwasntsatiated · 1 day ago

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tonight I was reminded that I am known and still loved regardless.

#I have been feeling so unloved lol #but I shared something so personal #something I am so afraid and ashamed of #and it wasn’t the end of the world and my friend wasn’t surprised #and it’s like everything feels a little less severe

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